Memories of desolation

Buried beneath this tired eyes

sorrow invades my soul

and leaves me alone with no mercy

so many awful things I did to myself

and now the damage is irretrievable

I can see empty people through this dusty window

hidden from the entire world

to be safe and lulled by dementia

I am running away of inner hell

I feel no hope, no love, no happyness

they have already gone

and I do not regret things I have done

but I won't forget what they did to me

I was totally misunderstood

by the mass named society

I am not trying to be better of

I just want to live alone for the rest of my days

without selfishness and hypocresy

I have had enough of people

I am hopeless and desolated

insane and worthless

goner and pissed

tired and bored

lonely and sad

I have weeped enough

those tears were in vain

nobody could hear them

even if I was crying with people around me

they only could hear their own voices

I feel like I am sinking

when I see someone laughing

and in that precisely moment

I lose myself completely

walking in the dark to nowhere in between

I can not laugh neither smile

I feel no feelings

and everything is effing wrong with me.