Eclipse

I came back to the place
I don't belong anymore
five long years
seems like nothing now

Everything seems blurry
my memories have faded away
the grass is not as green as I remember
the flowers were killed by indifference
the trees are in the same height as when I left
everything is as disgusting as when I saw it the last time

Ashes remain
pain remains in the darkest site of my heart
love has gone away
there is no a you and me

Inspiration goes and returns
like the sun every day
or the moon every night

I can barely see the first rays of sunlight
it is a pity
return with empty hands
and a mind full of blanks
like when I left

I used to hang out with the bitterness
no longer
loneliness is my new best friend
I enjoy its company

These voices aren't real
but sometimes they have good ideas
they suggested me to leave you and this pathetic town
full of hypocresy and ignorance

I haven't missed you, my dear
actually I forgot your pretty face
with your green eyes
and your curly messed up hair
I don't even remember the reason of being next to you
did I tell I love you?
do you remember my face while I was saying it?
do not say a word, I already know the answer
just try to accept it

I don't even know what love is
and I don't even fucking care about
I had awful experiences trying to understand the feeling
worthless guys were falling like rain
but even rain leave me breathless
and is heartwarming
for a wandering soul
like mine.